I am leaving a message before I read this cause I know it will be good. I can't access your journal while I am at work and have been having to wait until I get home everyday to read the lastest chapter.
I have loved the story so far.
I must admit that you have the psychology of the child abuse victim... no survivor down. I have had to stop reading several times. The blanking out, inability to control the memories, The split between the child and the adult, feeling like you are out of control, not wanting pweople to know cause they will pity/blame you... it is all thinks that have happened to survivors.
Several times I have had to walk away cause it was too real. But my need to know that Tony and Tonio get through this always draws me back. That and the hope that Tony and Gibbs will make each other happy.